Adreneline

Today i think i kinda know how my body functions.

Early in the morning,
i have been doing chemistry exercise.
even big foot say de lousy questions,
i can't seem to do it.

Calculus is the same thing,
pretty stright forwards questions,
i cant think of the formula chain.

Today dad finally drive the "buatan malaysia"
i have been speeding all the way home,
dad must have know i'm in a bad mood,
he kept silent only.

just now went to dinner,
still not in a very good mood,
more and more scenes of
"efforts indirectly proportional to fruition"
appearing.......

i played chess,
dunno the computer is comforting me or wat,
every time when i'm in a bad mood,
i win.

But i believe is my mind,
which had become more focus than usual,
focus on taking down the obstacles.

this happens to everyone in anger, hate and sorrow.
Homo Sapiens seems to be more concentrated,
when they're in the mentioned states.

They wanna chase away the anger, hatred and sorrow so much,
they dun seems to care about anything else,
they just put all their brains in taking down what is not welcomed in their mind.

Another thing i hate most about myself is,
I'm imperfect.
i dun have tears when i needed them.

i understand the feeling of
"crying out will be better"
but i just cant sense it thoroughly.

i guess i'm really those 越战越勇 kind,
my internal processing speed,
will automatically increase abv the required lvl during crucial times.

it's been a harsh week,
sorry readers,
if i dragged you into my negative emotions.
glad there's 4 days of holiday.



i seriously need a break.


Fin~